I am more rested than I have been in probably a year but feel completel.y exhausted! I have a sneaking suspicion as to why that may be but will wait for confirmation. Last night I actually nearly 8 hours of sleep. That is MUCH more than I normally get (which I am planning to change). This morning I woke up nauseated and shortly after fulfilled the urge to purge. I was exhausted felt sick and needed to get the kids ready for Mothers Day Out. I considered skipping it today but thought then I will have to watch them all day and feel this way! So I forced myself to get them ready. They refused to eat the pancakes I microwaved and I actually gave in and bribed them to finish getting ready for a breakfast stop for donuts. So then my angels were yelling "donuts, donuts" and being much more cooperative. I was trying to control my tummy and focus on the end goal of getting my kiddos to a place where someone else could watch them! Yay for that! I drove them to school and they ate their donuts. I kept the windows down to try and feel better and stay awake. I put on some praise and worship and sang in an attempt to keep my mind off how I was feeling. FINALLY we arrived at their school and I got them in their classes. Mission Accomplished!! As I was driving home so very excited by the idea of laying down I started getting very tired. I had drank a cup of coffee to try and wake up. (That is ussually very effective). As I was driving on a small highway with no feeder road I could not hold my eyes open.
I thought what do I do. I was surrounded by fields and home was still a good 10 minutes away and there was no where to stop. I was in a bit of a panic. I just could not hold my eyes open. I started praying that God would just get me to a safe place to rest. I was seriously praying that I would not just fall asleep right then. All of a sudden I felt Gods very presence in the car with me much to my amazement. It was as if someone grabbed my hands and opened my eyes and started driving for me. I rarely feel overwhelmed by Gods presence like that when I am alone (it is ussually durring a time of community worship or praying with someone). The times I have felt it while alone it was breif maybe to confirm something or point me a certain direction or comfort me. This time it stayed for a long time! I believe that it actaully brought me safely home today. I know that sounds completely crazy and I really considered whether or not to share it but I do believe God performed a miracle today and I am so incredibly thankfull. When I finally arrived home I passed out so quickly that I forgot about the chicken my husband put out to defrost at 4:30am. Luckily when I awoke many hours later I cooked it immediately. I only say that to tell how tired I really was when I stepped out of the car. What is so incredible is that last 10 minutes of driving I did not think about how tired I was. It was as if for a very short time I was wide awake but not driving alone but being driven through. It is crazy to even think about it now. I was completely helpless and suddenly completely helped! I hope that telling about it can bring Glory to my heavenly Father!
June 29, 2010
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